My friends had babies yesterday, two beautiful baby girls, twins, gorgeous little lives. 

While i am so happy and overjoyed for them, seeing photos of their tiny little forms made me cry, because it brought sorrow for the baby i will never hold, the baby i lost that i will never kiss, it breaks my heart even though my heart breaks with joy for them.

life is too hard.

Anniversary of Loss

a year ago today, at 16+ weeks i found out my baby’s heart had stopped beating.

a year has gone by, i do not have a baby, i am not pregnant, and i did not even lose all the weight.  My grief has not lessened it has only increased.

i am so sad, every day, all the time.