Anniversary of Loss

a year ago today, at 16+ weeks i found out my baby’s heart had stopped beating.

a year has gone by, i do not have a baby, i am not pregnant, and i did not even lose all the weight.  My grief has not lessened it has only increased.

i am so sad, every day, all the time.

Letting God define me

Rejoice! Rejoice! The Lord your God LOVES you!

You are precious, a new creation in Christ Jesus.

And that is great news!

I have been struggling the past few days with the helplessness that comes from feeling trapped by mental illness, that despite all my efforts, my illness tries to define me.

BUT i let my GOD define me. And when the world tries to switch my focus to what i don't have, i fix my eyes on God, and the victory i have in Him.

i am sorry you are bored, when i am bored i re watch episodes of arrow or i watch harry potter movies... i dunno if that helps? 
 Sometimes i think boredom and loneliness get twisted up inside us, and we think we are bored, because nothing we could do holds enough interest... but it is because we are tired of doing it alone.  Have a nice day.