Letting God define me

Rejoice! Rejoice! The Lord your God LOVES you!

You are precious, a new creation in Christ Jesus.

And that is great news!

I have been struggling the past few days with the helplessness that comes from feeling trapped by mental illness, that despite all my efforts, my illness tries to define me.

BUT i let my GOD define me. And when the world tries to switch my focus to what i don't have, i fix my eyes on God, and the victory i have in Him.

selected status updates regarding my current crisis state, and the journey to recovery through medication adjustment, and prayer.

(from facebook and tumblr)

April 2013

Friends of adi sevice announcement-- i am not intentionally ignoring anyone- just i am only capible of comminication on a non-personal level right now- questions like how are you, are likely not to get an answer because i am triggered by the questions... Mental illness sometimes wins- 

Ah depression, two relatively 'good' days in a row- means a whammy of a bad day to pay for it.  and i had wanted to go outside today.

Sometimes getting something small done is a giant victory- i fixed the buttonsese on my horse sweater. Yay!

Do you ever think about how how some people can be such horrible people that they leave dark marks on your soul, they cause hurt simply because they consider themselves to be the centre of the universe, and therefore nothing matters more than their pride and happiness? That they just carry on, and the people that have been hurt watch helplessly as they hurt others. As they continue to use you well after you have tried to sever all ties. le sigh