You have no idea how blessed i am.

There are friends, there are colleagues and there are the ones that make it possible to get up and go on fighting every single day.

If you are any of those, i feel blessed to have you in my life.

And if you are my pack, my heart or my Orlando family, i owe my life to you.

Letting God define me

Rejoice! Rejoice! The Lord your God LOVES you!

You are precious, a new creation in Christ Jesus.

And that is great news!

I have been struggling the past few days with the helplessness that comes from feeling trapped by mental illness, that despite all my efforts, my illness tries to define me.

BUT i let my GOD define me. And when the world tries to switch my focus to what i don't have, i fix my eyes on God, and the victory i have in Him.

May 29, 2014

God gave me something yesterday and i want to share it with you. I had a very rough start to the day, i had had a misunderstanding with a friend the day before and it was weighing on me, and i was starting the day with that.

i was upset, and God showed me that i was bringing past hurts and past situations to this new problem, and i was letting that control how i reacted.

He gave me peace and reminded me not to carry worries forward. He allowed me to just let go and let God,

and He did this all while reminding me how important it is to start the day with Jesus. 

i hope today you are able to discern where past hurts are influencing current moments, and that God will take them from you.

May 31, 2014


Today i hope you know, that God may test your faith, but He will never be unfaithful. 

He could not love you more than He does at this moment, and no matter how you think you fail, no matter what happens, He could never love you less.

I hope you live your life knowing that Jesus thought your life was worth dying for.

I hope you know that you are SO loved.

a piece of writing from a blog i follow--- tumblr user thunderpopcola

This is how you lose her. 

You lose her when you forget to remember the little things that mean the world to her: the sincerity in a stranger’s voice during a trip to the grocery, the delight of finding something lost or forgotten like a sticker from when she was five, the selflessness of a child giving a part of his meal to another, the scent of new books in the store, the surprise short but honest notes she tucks in her journal and others you could only see if you look closely.

You must remember when she forgets. 

You lose her when you don’t notice that she notices everything about you: your use of the proper punctuation that tells her continuation rather than finality, your silence when you’re about to ask a question but you think anything you’re about to say to her would be silly, your mindless humming when it is too quiet, your handwriting when you sign your name in blank sheets of paper, your muted laughter when you are trying to be polite, and more and more of what you are, which you don’t even know about yourself, because she pays attention.

She remembers when you forget. 

You lose her for every second you make her feel less and less of the  beauty that she is. When you make her feel that she is replaceable. She wants to feel cherished. When you make her feel that you are fleeting. She wants you to stay. When you make her feel inadequate. She wants to know that she is enough and she does not need to change for you, nor for anyone else because she is she and she is beautiful, kind and good.

You must learn her. 

You must know the reason why she is silent. You must trace her weakest spots. You must write to her. You must remind her that you are there. You must know how long it takes for her to give up. You must be there to hold her when she is about to. 

You must love her because many have tried and failed. And she wants to know that she is worthy to be loved, that she is worthy to be kept.

And, this is how you keep her. 

(Source: thunderpopcola)

thoughts on atheism

In my experience some atheists are just as, if not more unreasonable and offensive as the Christians they rally against. 

As a Christian i respect your right to believe or not believe in God. I will joyfully give you my testimony and tell you why i am thrilled to be beloved of our Savior- i will tell you what he has done in my life, and what he continues to do.

But i will not get into a debate on God's word, i wont engage in a verse against verse bible battle with anyone. I will not permit you to devalue me because of my beliefs. 

i also will not listen to anyone who wants to tell me that GOD hates. OR that God wants anyone to judge and spread hatred. To do any of those things is to devalue the great gift God gave us in His Son Jesus Christ. 

He died so that we could exist in a new covenant with God. A life with not condemnation, a life abundant in God's love, a life filled with the joy of the Holy Spirit. 

Do not confuse the hatred of small minded people with actual Christianity. Pity them, pray for them. But do not paint us all with the same brush. And remember God's love is unconditional, you might not believe, but i do and when i pray for you, i know that He will hear me.

thanks for reading xx
adi