Blue light inhibits the production of melatoinin, which is what your body needs to produce so you can sleep.  Artificial lights are part of the problem, because biologically you are immune to the sun setting as you are always bathed in light, when you add the blue light from electronic screens, it makes it even more of a problem.

Intellectually KNOWING this is the problem and solving the problem, for me, are two completely different things, since i have so much trouble falling asleep, i made a no tumblr past 9 pm rule for myself, which is helping a great deal, i also try to stay of the laptop.

Upworthy Article on blue light and sleep

Letting God define me

Rejoice! Rejoice! The Lord your God LOVES you!

You are precious, a new creation in Christ Jesus.

And that is great news!

I have been struggling the past few days with the helplessness that comes from feeling trapped by mental illness, that despite all my efforts, my illness tries to define me.

BUT i let my GOD define me. And when the world tries to switch my focus to what i don't have, i fix my eyes on God, and the victory i have in Him.

For some people, there is a huge difference between birth control and contraception. HUGE difference, some people are fine with barrier methods of birth control but have a problem with contraception, it's not all the same thing.

Should your employer get to decide what works for you? Probably not, but then, you also have choices. Not all my medications are covered, so i have to chose, a different prescription, or pay out of pocket ( which is expensive and frustrating but it's what i have to do)

Let's be clear, do i think that the SCOTUS ruling is wrong. Very wrong. but they did not exclude all birth control, if you are an employer and you have to provide food for your employees, should you have to provide food that is against your religious beliefs? 

nothing is ever black and white, which is why life is so complicated and uncomfortable much of the time.

You know how i know rape culture is a thing? Because a staggering percentage of teenage boys do not know what rape is. They think 'no' is an invitation to try harder. Because married women are not told that they CAN say no to their husbands. Because we tell teenage boys that they are not responsible for their thoughts or actions if their fellow students wear shorts that are too short, or because their bra strap is visible.

We need to acknowledge that there is a problem, and understand that our sons cannot learn about respecting women and their right to say not if we don't talk to them about it.

Milla Jovovich for Donna Karan

i was good and did not buy the perfume just to get the packaging.

May 29, 2014

God gave me something yesterday and i want to share it with you. I had a very rough start to the day, i had had a misunderstanding with a friend the day before and it was weighing on me, and i was starting the day with that.

i was upset, and God showed me that i was bringing past hurts and past situations to this new problem, and i was letting that control how i reacted.

He gave me peace and reminded me not to carry worries forward. He allowed me to just let go and let God,

and He did this all while reminding me how important it is to start the day with Jesus. 

i hope today you are able to discern where past hurts are influencing current moments, and that God will take them from you.

May 31, 2014


Today i hope you know, that God may test your faith, but He will never be unfaithful. 

He could not love you more than He does at this moment, and no matter how you think you fail, no matter what happens, He could never love you less.

I hope you live your life knowing that Jesus thought your life was worth dying for.

I hope you know that you are SO loved.

i am sorry you are bored, when i am bored i re watch episodes of arrow or i watch harry potter movies... i dunno if that helps? 
 Sometimes i think boredom and loneliness get twisted up inside us, and we think we are bored, because nothing we could do holds enough interest... but it is because we are tired of doing it alone.  Have a nice day.